Crazy!

Am I crazy?  Is this for real?  Sometimes this whole process seems like a dream, I expect to just wake up and get back to "normal" life.  I am about to crawl out of my skin right now... anxiously waiting for an email update that I expected to get today from our adoption agency.  I don't know why I feel so anxious, I realize that things move slowly and maybe nothing productive happened today.   I was hoping to hear that our translated documents had been picked up and safely brought back to the orphanage (or better yet, already brought to the US Embassy!!!  But if that happened then I'd really know I was dreaming because things just don't happen that quickly).  

I feel that I am becoming obsessive-compulsive about constantly checking my email... waiting... waiting... waiting... wondering what is going on down there, feeling so far away, so out of control... doubting and questioning... oh dear God, please move mountains for us in these next few weeks!!

Wait... one more check of my email before I crash into bed tonight... refresh, refresh, refresh... oh poop... nothing.

Good night all.
Sincerely,
Elizabeth